Here, you've been married, you know the feeling...it's awful that we--old--with a past... not of love, but of sins...are brought all at once so near to a creature pure and innocent; it's loathsome, and that's why one can't help feeling oneself unworthy.

" "Oh, well, you've not many sins on your conscience.

" "Alas! all the same," said Levin, "when with loathing I go over my life, I shudder and curse and bitterly regret it....